…It looks as if this batch will not arrive before Christmas. This does not surprise me. My agency thinks end of December/early January and I tend to agree. Personally, I think they’ll come next week, before Jan, just because it seems they like to have a batch arrive once a month officially.

I still can’t shake the feeling — against all rationality and objectivity — that we have been matched. I wish I could shake it because it would make for less of a let down if we’re not in this batch. My intuition says we have, but I’m just not trusting my intuition at this point. I’m way too close to this issue to trust it.

So, in anticipation of us not being in this batch, here are some things I will do in the next month while we wait (some more):

1. Finish getting FD’s room decorated.
2. Save more money. We’re still a bit short for this last part of the adoption and we would prefer not to go into debt for it.
3. Work like a fiend in anticipation of not being able to work for several months after FD is home.
4. Lose some of the weight I have put on from nervous/emotional eating. I think I’ve gained about 5 pounds, but I don’t want to get on the scale to find out.
5. As a salve for my bummed-outness, I will create another blog and hire someone to do graphics for it to make it all purty. I will keep this LJ as well.

CCAA has implemented (will implement) many new rules for adoptive parents — new requirements on weight, health and financial situation. It’s in an effort to pare down the amount of families who wish to adopt from China.

This has been in the news, so you may have seen it. I’ve known about it for a while. I think James and I would be okay under the new regulations. The unknown variable is my asthma. So, I think we could adopt again, if we chose. (We’re just trying to get through this one, so not really thinking about that now.)

The big question currently is whether or not the CCAA will immediately begin rejecting logged in dossiers under these new regs, or if they will apply them to all new adopting families. Most assume the latter. I really, really hope so. I can’t imagine waiting for as long as we have, having gone through all that we have…only to be rejected a month away from referral. My god. I can’t even begin to imagine that.

Okay…now fun stuff. Dude, I need some fun stuff:

I am going to buy this today….

Ergo baby carrier. I’ve been considering a few different ones, but I think this one will be the most comfortable and easy to use. You can use it with older kids, too…which is a good thing.

I am also buying this….

Diaper bag!